Saatnya ku berkata mungkin yang terakhir kalinya Sudahlah lepaskan semua kuyakin inilah waktunya Mungkin saja kau bukan yang dulu lagi Mungkin saja rasa itu telah pergi
Dan mungkin bila nanti kita kan bertemu lagi Satu pintaku jangan kau coba tanyakan kembali Rasa yang kutinggal mati Seperti hari kemarin saat semua disini
Dan bila hatimu termenung bangun dari mimpi2mu Membuka hatimu yang dulu cerita saat bersamaku Mungkin saja kau bukan yang dulu lagi Mungkin saja rasa itu telah pergi
Dan mungkin bila nanti kita kan bertemu lagi Satu pintaku jangan kau coba tanyakan kembali Rasa yang kutinggal mati Seperti hari kemarin saat semua disini
Tak usah kau tanyakan lagi simpan untukmu sendiri Semua sesal yang kau cari semua rasa yang kau beri
Hmm..today is my last day this week in Perlis..Tomorrow, I'll headed to Johor Bharu for some Poli purposes.. I just dunno wat to say about it...
Yesterday I was in my hometown, drove to KL...and took LRT to Jln Duta headed to Perlis. What I can say is...It's all about tanggungjawab, nothing to worry since I've arrived my office in a very gud condition eventhough penat yg x bleh nak di gambarkan...
Tomorrow..I'll hit the road to JB- spesifically - Pasir Gudang. Big work and Big time...and big responsiblity. En. Amir plak x jadi ikut, so just 3 of us will be going. I dont know how it will be in there...maybe I have to take lots of livita to make me stay awake until d last day in JB which is Friday.
Missing someone badly... The world seems so dull without him and seeing him bugging my life. Wish he knows that I care so much bout him.
Balik umah dlu, nak packing and qada tido..smlm x dpt tido..huhuhuuh
wow..not to late..I want to share my best moment with Yasmin-Sepet! She superbbbbbbzz! two thumbs up for my last day of meeting in Dynasty KL. Walaupun penat 2 hari tak tido (U can c tru my eyes and my tiring face) tapi sronok sbb bleh jumpe one of my Film Inspiration. All d best for her
Juz came back from KL..meeting for a week..Damn I hate staying in Dynasty Hotel...full of jerk! Kinda tiring..but the fud is awesome!! buffet!! yummy..tapi x mkn byk sgt coz ade org tu ckp kite dah gemuk..aparraaa!!! Nothing much to say..but last few day I made a big mistake!was an evil for a day...lama dah tak jadi b**** ni...well...it's like yin n yan, inside the dark there's a spark of white and sebaliknya..
Well...well..during my fly to KL, my honey was on d way to utara..so we swap place duhh?? selisih... :-s Life is meant to be like that I guess. Kinda miss him so much! am I too appreciating him? but somehow I dun think he see it.Again..life is meant to be like that (maybe)...nad blablabla..Cant say much about such a thing..It'll tear me to flood!
Have a nc day..Anyway congrates Jue...U r graduating! I m soooo impress with ur Anigami Artwork. Proud to have such a cool dude like U..muacchh :x
Happy belated b'day to myself...after a few days asyik di bombarded dgn bday wishes..I forgot to wish myself.. thx for roomates and neighbours for the surprise parteyyyy..I love it...it was the first time I read doa for my b'day.. I wish so that ...hmm a lot of wishes!.. wat else I can say ek..Justa little bit matured...and a step futhure to grab a little bit of satisfaction in creating my own future.
I'm totally spice to be here...PERLIS, a place where I've been located finally. Last week when I was having a week meeting with kementerian, I tot I'd be jailed with bulk of works. Well, seems that it's far left behind....Keje Gomen...org kata rilex..yet, it's true.
Masuk ofis kol 8, tea time @10, balik lunch by12.45 (Even though d exact tiem is 1.15...be back at the ofis by 2.15 after solat (and nap)...sit and work till 4.15...then balik rumah! main masak². It's so lovely if I have kids at home coz I have so many time left compare to keje @KL dulu. (kekadang tu kol 10 baru nampak tangga rumah) Now, everything's change..Maybe God says : Enuf Wawa, this is d time 4U to take a break...Rest and endulge urself with a sea breeze in Perlis.
I'm staying in campus, huge condo I could say provided to the lecturers teaching here.5 rooms and 3 bathrooms. Currently stay with other 2 soft spoken girls form Alor Star :D..
my pic with the other teacher in my school. Teaching the brilliant kid is not that easy - I've been a month here. Kinda new working environment for me.. But it's cool and highly pay...hihihi >:)
d weather seems sooo lame...and I feel sooo uptight. Met an old fren juz now..She was passing me with a big smile on her face. Well, it must be some signal which tell me that I need to greet her.
It starts with hello...long lost fren I bet. She just remind me of Mariana, my best fren who passed away couple months ago. Deep inside me, I'm hurt to c her and remind me to Mariana.. How fast the time passing by till we forgot wat we left and wat we want in d future.
My masters class will be starting this 4th Dec, and I'm so awake about it. We r chasing what we want! but do we really know to answer this question : What do U want in life?
Unfortunately, no one can give the corect answer once they are asked with such a global question.. Do U really know what U want in Life? U wanna be happy of course! How happy U can b if U got what U want?
Some how, once U get what U want, do U feel happy? Back to Mariana, she dun get what she want in life! We've been sharing tears and bulk of laughter together...she said she want this and that..be like this and that...And I think I'm so happy if she get it all..Unfortunately, she 'went' away from us without gaining anything....
Back to me... If I think about her..I should be happy to be me now...and di panjang umur oleh-Nya. Still! I've given a shade of time to gaining more thing in life..Anyway, is that all can make us happy? or do we still be happy even though we dun need to have anything ? Happiness is wanting what U have!
To all of my old frens...I'm so happy to meet all of U, and for those who r getting married this weekend, U guess will be remembed..U'll marrying each other on my 1st day of school! happy Wedding!
See the pyramids along the Nile Watch the sun rise From the tropic isle Just remember, darling All the while You belong to me See the marketplace in old Algiers Send me photographs and souvenirs Just remember When a dream appears You belong to me
And I'll be so alone without you Maybe you'll be lonesome too
Fly the ocean in a silver plane See the jungle When it’s wet with rain Just remember Till you're home again You belong to me.
Happy day where kakchik got interview in aviation company..just in front of KLCC...I wish she got that job! where we can go shopping together...lunch together...p keje and balik keje sesama...life's gonna be great. And the happiest one is : I found out how much I love my sisters...and how happy I am if she'll get that job...so we can hang out togede-gede :D..balik sesama....makan sesama...sounds FUN!...hope she'll get that job..
life's walk so fast...it seems that we moved far from the former road we used to be....
Last weekend was the tremendous, remarkable, terrific weekend I’ve ever had – not awful I hope ;) When I catch his mom in the airport…everything jump to be …(speechless)..hahaha..but the nite b4 was fantastic! Guess! I knew it. The joy is yours and ours to work hard and make it real…It’s all started from a stupid pair of d****** r****. (giggle)…There’s only me and U know Y the God send me ‘there’…What a stupid and self-indulgent act which was lead to a mature and adult decision…Hah! I wish it’ll end up blissful!…. it’s funny though! But it’s memorable one!. I wish I have a gut to share it with my future grandchilds..whoohooooo!!!!
Girls out there!! Go watch this movie-[b] Monalisa smile[/b] http://www.sonypictures.com/m... U wont be regret. I like the movie sooooooooooo much! THE COLOR, THE MUSIC, THE SCRIPT AND EVEN THE CINEMATOGRAPHY! DAMN COOL!! this kinda movie yg sepatutnye kite tengok. The story of a women, Who challenge the mindS of the brightest student IN THE COUNTRY, TO OPEN THEMSELVES TO THE DIFFERENT IDEA ..AND GO ON TROUGH THE JOURNEY THEY NEVER IMAGINED! It's worth it..bkannye citer yg tadek moral etc and cintan cintun semata².. And Guess wat, my favourite song is on the movie. Currently the romantic love song, sing by Jason Wade - U belong to me..tapi seems that this movie is in the year of 1954, I guess, Jason wade re-sing the song.. haa it's quit funny to hear that song in the oldish version (and I sang along during the movie) [u] [i]You Belong To Me The Duprees[/u] See the pyramids along the Nile Watch the sun rise on a tropic isle Just remember darling all the while You belong to me See the marketplace in old Algiers Send me photographs and souvenirs But remember when a dream appears You belong to me I'll be so alone without you Maybe you'll be lonesome too and blue Fly the ocean in a silver plane Watch the jungle when it's wet with rain Just remember till you're home again You belong to me[/i] Luckily there's not so many audience..can be count with both hands.. Tu laa org kite nak tengok jek citer tah pape...citer yg bermotif camni susah nak boom in m'sia...not like in abroad. People seeking for such a good storyline. 8) One day I wish to be that lady..for me she's very success and outstanding! Dont care bout judgment or look. She just feeling so perfect of knowing the real life and future..and of course being herself. This kinda lady we need in this new century. Damn!! I love this movie so much!
[b]Artist: HOOBASTANK Album: The Reason Title: The Reason [/b]
I'm not a perfect person As many things I wish I didn't do But I continue learning I never meant to do those things to you And so I have to say before I go That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me To change who I used to be A reason to start over new and the reason is you
I'm sorry that I hurt you It's something I must live with everyday And all the pain I put you through I wish that I could take it all away And be the one who catches all your tears Thats why i need you to hear
I've found a resaon for me To change who I used to be A reason to start over new and the reason is You [x4]
I'm not a perfect person I never meant to do those things to you And so I have to say before I go That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me To change who I used to be A reason to start over new and the reason is you
I've found a reason to show A side of me you didn't know A reason for all that I do And the reason is you
Things walk in a wrong path...with lots of burning road and painful shoes. Hard convey into wise word..wat's left is all the shit that hard to be understood.
should I cry? no? wat a question!!! Really hope Faez will be ok.I dont think LambarPuntur in the best solution! NO WAY!.Havent sleep so many days for him and Faez. So worry anyway, but I have to cover it up with a compilation of : Fake happiness and untruthfull smile. So that no one else become so worry.
Met Dr Shuhaimi from HUSM.. another Doctor to be date with...hehehhe...God,gimme the streght to help my family.Give me more streght so I can hold my parents from falling down. I hope I've tried my best and give all the right things...and everything will be back to normal. So sad and depressed somoehow... I miss all the lough..hahhahah...the huge lough with icon gelak tergolek² tu..hehhee.
there's nothing to do in office today...counting hours to go home and hang out with my niece and nepws.
Seems that cyberjaya people is so closed in my heart eventhough we are far separated. I've lough a lot with Jue today.. To be memorized back, I havent lough this much since last semester. How I miss those frens who used to lough together with me all day long in MMU..and those who share the tears.
It's hard to find a fren today..esp those who U can sit down with and talk for hours about life and reality stuf. It's depends on U how to get such a pal...and it's depends on ur sincerely trust.People used to ask themselved: "I dont even trust my own life, how can I trust others?" but do they really know the real definition of trust and being trusted?
ANd if we define in the exact word, does it match in each persons view?
for me somehow..I can lough if I trust someone. And I cant lough if I dun trust him (except a fake lough). Lough brings happiness if we happy with the person we talk and make joke with. It's the happiness within...
WE trust people if they always tell the truth..the truth will make us happy even how pain the truth is!
Trust your own instinct. Your mistakes might as well be your own, instead of someone else's.
Anyway..miss u all so much..miss my frens in CY..my teachers and everyone there who really made my day!
LIFE IS QUITE BZ, I CANT EVEN SAY HI TO EVERYONE..OR EVEN GUD BYE TO MY BELOVED CLASSMATES N FRENS. ADMIT TO WORK, AFTER A WEEK OF PENGANGGURAN... I REALLY MISS ALL OF MY FRENS THE IN CJ.MY GOSH...IF ONLY I CAN BRING BACK TIME..GO ALONG BOTH WITH MY CURRENT DAILY LIFE. :roll:
Finally! but it seems that I'm lack of words..even words of comfort for my own tired and slaving head!...well, this is it..i think it's over now..I can get back my sleep and my space. Omaiigawd!! it's been a very long path I havent grab some good sleep and leisure.
Owhh well, talking bout Final Presentation - DM : where everything is possible!! I havent tot I can go this far..With the help,courage,moral support from all the bunch aroun, I can see that, I can do it eventhough dah tinggal skeleton'..no more sexy but' hahhaha..frankly It's been over a month I havent grab the thing called REAL LIFE...and what's the real fact is = Money flow like a rainfall.NO KIDDING!
After all, I feel PUAS! to see I can manage myself to go trough all the pain and sickness....of design..Well, this is the real life of being designer where U cant get enuf sleep, enuf food, enuf time coz everything is base on due. And for the time given,some say "tak cukup masalaa etc blablabla", I found out that I can push myself to this stage (Hmm those great achiever eg: Shakespear was also had 24-7,same like me)
Planning to go home to see my parents and my kampung tonite. Mom keep buzzing me to allow her to treat my flight ticket!..but it seems to much to bear for me after a bunch of bling² I've been planting in the seed of design. I'd rather go trough 8 hours journey- Simply say ..IT"S SO MUCH much muchhh CHEAPER!! it's just a parents wat - they want to give the best and the fastest way to be rite beside me...how cute :lol:
Hmm this is my cute garden representaing my isntallation - Dance pad and the programming stuf...(with the flowers to kick the point of my target audiences - Kids)
DM and all the DM stuf..part-time and all the broadband stuff...Interview and all the job stuf...what a hectic week I had! I"m happy I can still lock the door and hit the road out of Cyberjaya! U made it Wawa! Thx God
It's been so long I've been slaving myself on the world of programming and design stuf..How I miss my family and my sisters so much...and for that long period of time, I forgot about the most valuable things in life...
Well, atuk aji just passed away pagi tadi.. I really wish to go home :( Mak cakap he missed me .. Now I feel so stupid to focus myself on the dunia..I forgot those old people and the one who was sick.. But atuk dah takde lagi..really wish to go home atuk..I really wish to kiss you good bye,but I just cant. Ma told me that ur face are very crytal clear when they are about to cover U with the white clothes. It just the Iman which shine from deep inside your soul. I can still remember how happy u were at that time to hear about I'm getting myself in IPT. U did a solat hajat for me... U'll never to do that again and again when I told U about my wish. I'm so sorry for not being there when U were about to leave us..
I can still remember how happy u were if I cook something esp juadah buka puasa. I'll not forget to share it with you coz I'm so happy to see how much U appreciate the rezeki. I remember that U never say thanks to me,never!..but U said Syukralillah. Atuk's house is just in front of my house..he had 17 stairs to reach the hall..And I can see him climb up the stairs everyday during my teenage age @kampung.. He never shout...he has a very humble voice.I know how pain it is holding a stomach cancer,but he never cried. When ayah send him to the hospital, he just said a word .."Allah"..Nothing much can do..the doctor want him to stay at home..and I already know what will happen to him...till today
ANd it's always remind me that wateve we have in life is not bcoz of other people..it's just the rezeki from Allah. Sometime we feel that we are so rich..lots of money..but atuk always said that : it's amanah from Him and we need to sahre it with those who need it the most. I'll always remember that atuk..Always...
I can still remember back the time I came back from Mecca. U was the one who turn up @home with ur smiling and blessing look. And what can I do for the history so called memories? I cant bring back atuk aji, it just calling the tears to fall down like a rain!
Well..ajal and maut, seme tu di tangan tuhan.. It just the matter of how we ready for it..And I bet atuk are really² know that he wont be long with us. How stupid I am for not being at home..
Seems that we are too far away..pushing ourselves so much on duniawi stuff... and we forgot, there's a hands of life are grabing for us..And we just seems that we dun see it. Atuk was so excited about all the achievement I had in life. I jus feel so sad about this news...
How much the dunia can give us? Good MARKS??? huh??? good look? good friends?? good dress? good food? huh??? till we all seems forgot the other life coming ahead! I'm so mad of myself..Atuk..I'm sorry. I know it was too damn late.. my yassin come along you way atuk.and I know U r very sad n pain to see my tears now..I'll try to hold it as much as I can.
Maybe it's a sign for me to look back into those people I love...time is passing by so fast and I cant even say hi somehow. I think I just dont realize it..Hunger over a cute thing called life - but it seems hanging around me, and I just pretend that I have none.
Semoga roh atuk aji dicucuri rahmat..and I want to go home to say I love U ma..I love U ayah..that's all. I'm scare if one day I have no time to say this everyday :cry:
A year older by today... but I still want to talk about yesterday! Alhamdulillah, what've been planting in my head for quit so long, tercapai jgak. I was having a great time and birthday 'party' in Masjid MMU. Tq to all yg datang, closest frens and housemates. And it's open my mind to a new thing and happiness.. A great venture in future about FOOD and how U can make money out of it. But somehow, I better think it deep b4 making a great jump into the world - hahahhahahah
ok ok..back to the birthday pary stuf'. Talking bout Masjid as a place to gather all the jemaah for a thing called "parteyyy" :D Well, it seems that it's the best place to say thanx to Allah for such a huge gift - Giving us life and the opportunity of living..panjang umur till today.
After isya' there was a solat hajat, I put all the wish within sujud and salam..the wish that I dont think I can make it true except with the bless from Him... the wish that I can see a better picture of being myself..the wish I'll be shown myself who's my truest friend.. and some other personal wishes.. I dont really care how much God want to grand my with the long live, but I wish everyday or even every second of my breath is full of bless and great feelings so that I can pour the full love from me to other people around.
Talking bout great feeling, well, this is the applause party I shud say where we are celebrating without splashing cakes and icing coz now I'm the stage who so called adult (I guess) My heart is freakin cold to freez' my year..hahahha.. And I saw so many differences view of my friends around. Anyway, TQ W for a great hand.
If we look deep in someone eyes, there's 2 fellows who we think are in different paths and journeys..Firstly, I can see W everywhere....around me when at any time. From the stony road to a red carpet floor, to be honest, there's people we can ask to join us for such a religion need, but somehow there's other people for such a world joy and life.. And they are different people.. but then W is so called 'kawan dunia akhirat'..
If we observe to normality of friendship, we tried to give our best to anyone else around - I tot I cant make it, I cant cook that much, I cant serve that party and I cant pleaseee everyone... However, with the unoficial invitation and unexpected guest among unexpected friends, I shud thx to God to give me such a great and happy celebration.It's not a huge party, but then I just feel happy..and fullhearted celebration. So glad to be born as me :wink: Everything's become so perfect and sweet with a cute party. I was smilling so much with the itchy knee (mebbe penat shop barang dapur nak masak spageti :P )
Well, at the end of the nite, I got a huge surprise..DAMN it.. It almost 12 oclock, and I cant even share how happy I am. Thank you :roll:
Hmm... throwing myself in year ahead, better from yesterday.That's all I can say..coz nothing much in my mind rather than a cute lovely great perfect 23rd Birthday. Happy Birthday Wawa!! (still teringat kelibat someone in [i][b]Baju Melayu Purple bz serving jemaah till dia pun tak sempat makan[/b][/i])
'VE HEAR THIS TWICE : Setiap Insan Ada Kekurangan Dan Kelebihannya...........BERSYUKURLAH
U better beleive this! I'm shifting my schedule to something so called preciouse. Maybe I'll cont' later.. But to tell me the truth, I'm figuring out my whole feeling and ...and...blablabla...It's really damn kewl sesion.
