hari ni sangat sunyi..there's no sound of chipping birds.. the monotonouse construction or even the wind blow. Cam hari kematian... sunyi....sangat sunyi. There's no housemates to lough out loud with.There's no phone ringing... No Mp3, where's everybody? Look outside the window- There's no traffic, There's no mowig tress and there's no clouds! Where am I??? :shock: God give me something for today.. I feel so lonely.. This weather make me feel ignored :( Where's everything? The lough and words? Maybe macam ni kot rasanya bila kita dah meninggalkan alam dunia. Where there's nothing can come along with us. I didnt do anything today, neither my assignment nor studying. I just took some papers, cut it and pasted it in some other papers. I used to do that when I'm lonely-end up to nothing, just a bulk of thick papers after it has been paste in so many layers...After it's done, I just trown it away. :lol: hihiihih
Yatie went out with her BF, she's so excited to go out sampaikan tatau nak pick which shirt to put on her. Finally she pick yellow! Never seen her in that shirt..so bright and shiny 8) ..look so cheerfull as the way she always be. And I'm so happy for her! so happy to see how cheerful she is. :D
Made a tea and goreng keropok from trgnu given by Abang.... :) Tak selera nak makan.. This place is so quite today.. the weather itself make me isolated. Now I can see the tress besides the window is starting to wave it's leaves like clapping their hands. It's really cheer me up.. ahh now I can hear a bird chipping!!! :D God! Gimme some more. I really need it. Wat's life meant to be if I'm all alone? :cry: One day..I'll face this phase! I'll be on that stage where there's no one beside me :( , no one to make me lough and cry, no one will share my stories, no one can throw me some jokes and makes me happy, no one can tell me that THEY LOVE ME. I'm so scare of that esp if if I have to face it in my golden age when I'm all alone :roll: The time may come. The emptiness is everywhere. Just be prepared :wink:
Afternoon wawa. I woke up sooo camn late. My baby balik smlam..wat a huge surprise, but I was thinking that he'll be back yesterday..He'll surprise me. Tapi tak berani nak comfirm it to myself..If only he didnt come home,I'd be mad of myself..hihihi :lol: I'm suppose to catch NTV7 today..Just dun have enuf confident-dunno Y. STooopid me! :x
My darling dah balik..so happy..smlm makan dgn berselera..it has been so long tak sentuh nasik! heheh sronok ade org temankan makan..baru selera. SO happy he finally come home.Dunno wat to feel. tak terexpress ngan words etc..hihihih :D No wonder I love him so much :wink:
Shah Alam == NTV7==KL==MidValley. Balik trough jammed all the way home.
But then I met Mus kat Tmn Megah Petronas..and unexpectedly I meet E @NTV7. E keje sane ke? hmm esok audition..nak pegi ke tanak ni? Nama dah key in :roll:
Aneh Tiap mimpi membuka kelopak mimpi yang lain Berlapis-lapis mimpi Tiada laut berombak Tiada hujung pantai berlabuh.. Tiada pasir berpijak Tiada aroma menyentuh, Bergesel di fana bagai tiada udara. Kosong, asing, bagaikan telah mati.
Dalam dakapan hampa Angin yang membawa semilir duka.
Masih ku tega Berselimut ikhlas bersulam duka. Dalam jutaan tabir rahsia Membiarkan diri asing…terpinggir Dan hina…..
Tiada sahutan pada rayuan Tiada tolehan pada sentuhan Dunia telah mati agaknya
Kudatangi kemudianya pintu-pintu awan Nadi-nadi cahaya dan kegelapan Rimba sepi dan kejadian Dibalik telusan lelangait merawan Terapung di pawana tiada singgahan.
Pilu dendam dan sesalan Bagaikan satu kematian Bermandikan air mata rindu Berkapankan padunya cinta Bersemadi bersama rusuk yang paling dalam.
Merangkak ke singgahsana tangga Tiada dinding dan tirai akhirnya Ku lihat tangisan melata Kuuntaikan pujukan cinta Di antara deraian Berlantaikan derita berpintukan hiba.
Dunia telah mati agaknya Kita bagaikan tiada rasa Tiang syukur rebah dijiwa Hanya menoleh dan melihat saja Bagaikan mimpi di alam nyata
Andai ini Kau namakan kematian Dibirai usang harapan Bersadurkan pudarnya warna keikhlasan
Aku masih di sini… Ke laut, ke awan dan ke rimba Berkelekkan dalamnya rasa hati Berlipur tanpa cerita di lapis-lapis mimpi terakhir.
morning wawa..not a good start today..woke up with tears. I hate such a dream! Dream bout my parents, they went for a vacation in mekkah but they dont want to come home. hey want to stay there for forever. It's not a good new! Y? 1) it's hard to get the Tanah Arabnye nationality. 2) accomodation 3) How to buy food 4) no body's a round to take care of their healthness. Wat a dreammmm :cry: Please don't leave me ma.. Please. U promise me that U want to stay with me! Then we cam go vacation together 8)
Last nite tido tak basuh kaki kot. hihihih :P hardly to sleep last nite... Abang call 12pm. Time tu baru nak lelap i guess...maybe tired of driving all the way to Genting and back to MMU. I hope my sist happy..Yeah of course! sape tak happy to get unexpected cash!..muhahhahaha :twisted:
How about today? I wish to cook, but nothing can be put on stove kat dapur tu..hihih cant go shop - 10bux left. Have to survive ill tis saturday coz nak balik kg for raya.Yes..balik kg..jumpa ayah..how I miss to hug him..Dad, I hope that U know how much I love U. Nanti one day..bile wawa dah keje, kite idup besh²..tadek owang dah leh kaco kite..kite p vacation...jokes everyday...love every seconds.
Abg call, kate nak balik hari jumaat. Jumaat tu wawa dah balik kg ke blom ek? wat if kalu kite selisih lagi. miss u too.
Morning to myself.. Woke up so early in the morning..guess why? COz I want to make apple pie for our breakfast. Wish every day of my day is like this...I have enough time to prepare breakfast for my Abang when we are 'together' one day :) .
It such a lovely and happy start. Wish it end up as the way it start. Last nite I bake CLoverleaf bread- seems tak begitu success. Nvm, I'll never give up.I'll try again and again. By 'Cooking' - make me calm inside..happy..cheerful..everything! I just dont know Y.. :lol:
Hari ni nak gi genting, setelkan seme pasal CiCi... nak service CiCi...hmm have to take out some of saving which I've made for 'us'. Takpe, nanti wawa sewa keta lagi and buat part-time sesikit, sempat cover balik kot :wink:
Well, Yatie and Pacik will accompany me to meet my sister. I hope she's happy enough to get the money. If only money can make U happy sist, I'll give to U, no worry..but plz dun tell me that U r regret of giving opportunity for me to have CiCi...CiCi is everything for me...She can do things that no one else could do. She cheer me up and bring our siblings together.. BBQ, balik kampung, Raya...Ma&ayah nye vacation in KL..EVERYTHING! CiCi was with me all day to share my tears and slave.... feel so sad..better I stop here.. I wont ruin my day with this tears.
Well.... bila abang nak balik ni? Dont U miss me? :cry: Kesian abang, keje banyak :( Just take care ok coz I love U so much. Nanti one day I'll bake this apple pie to U..I'll make it special :D coz U deserve all the best and the special one!
Wish all my wish for today come true, dengan niat hati yg ikhlas meeting my sisters and take a joy for my friends and I. God, bless me for today. Selamatkan perjalanan kami...
something really put me in a huge tot...never get this truthfull confession. How sincere tapi dia mmg buat wawa malu sangat..yang amatt...aduihhh :oops: :oops: Kot ye pun.. I think..jgn laa cakap..well, tapi sbb dia jujur or over jujur.. aduhh.. There's something I have to change then.
HIM (12:42:03 AM): something to tell you sweetysutie (12:42:21 AM): what? HIM (12:42:30 AM): takde HIM (12:42:48 AM): my gf la, time jumpe wawa kat cj aritu la sweetysutie (12:42:53 AM): ha'ah? HIM (12:43:04 AM): dier agak terkejut, sbb wawa seksi sgt sweetysutie (12:43:08 AM): owhh *TGH COVER AYAT CAMNE NAK REACT..MALUEE :oops: :oops:
HIM (12:43:15 AM): hehehe sweetysutie (12:43:17 AM): hihihih sweetysutie (12:43:25 AM): iskk HIM (12:43:25 AM): actually saya pun terkejut sweetysutie (12:43:33 AM): heheheheh HIM (12:43:34 AM): tapi takpe HIM (12:43:43 AM): itu wawa punya hak
pakai baju kurung pun sexy, normal dress pun sexy.. Malu seh kene tego camni :oops:
Sometimes wawa terpk nak pakai jubah jek.. this type of dressing dah byk ruins my fren nye relationship..Just bcoz I wore this and that and GF dierg komen blabla.. then end up timbul rasa lain plak.. tapi at last dierg plak dress like me.. wearing same shoes like mine... wearing same clothes like mine. Is that fair? :roll:
Days gone by and i feel like ...nak gile! betul kata kak Na kot..I have a mental problems..hahha (which is created by all of U) Life turn to deaf, nothing to hear,... Soul turn to emptiness, nothing to taste. It's like a death waiting a step forward. Rotating myself in life so called freakin' useless! hmm, Tomorrow - Monday..big stuff to be done - Settle some Cici's problem and of course some money give aways. No worry Cici, I'll always love U :P . We are good friends arent we? I wont let anything happen between us.. Coz no one else can help me and do such a best thing except U. And I love U so much... same goes with Olen. Life will be sooo sad if none of U are here with me. Everyday is full by tears and sadness. Y? Or izit bcoz I miss my abang so much? or missing Olen? I dunno... I know nothing.. it's empty inside. I just feel sad...that's all. And I dun even know Y I'm sad. it's just the same 'blur²' feelings I've gone trough every single day.. Insane? Not now ok! and pls stop giving me pressure. I'll hate my life if I cant stop this feeling...full anger and hate...sick and revenges.. For those around me, plz stop giving me pressure. I might as well kill U one day..No KIDDING!
I hate this feel - the feel of SICK! SICK of MISSING U
hmm Rabun@TV3..nice and light movie - Love it so much..remind me to my Abang...Wish we can be happy like 'em...-love till their golden ages. Life's perfect and so nice.. Hidup sederhana but lovely. I wish we can be happy like that till the end of our life coz I love U so much :wink:
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* SBNRNYE TAMOH KUAR LEWAT.LAGIPUN my ABANG IS NOT AROUND!
wawacrv (12:20:55 AM): terima kasih THAT BOY (12:22:05 AM): jomlaa.. besok nak balik dahh THAT BOY (12:22:16 AM): bile lagi nak kluar wawacrv (12:23:09 AM): takpe laa wawacrv (12:23:22 AM): hmm adik2 umah wawa lom makan, kalu dierg nak kirim bleh tak? THAT BOY (12:23:52 AM): ajak diorg sekali la wawacrv (12:24:09 AM): iskkk wawacrv (12:24:12 AM): tak yah laa wawacrv (12:25:32 AM): korg gi jek THAT BOY (12:26:06 AM): sebenarnye kitorg nak sewe lain je kalau wawa tanak gi wawacrv (12:26:25 AM): oo haa takpe laa
* DALAM ATI AKU, NAK SEWA KETA AKU KE NAK AJAK AKU MAKAN SBNRNYE NIHH??? hahhahaha
wawacrv (12:26:28 AM): sewa keta owang lain wawacrv (12:26:34 AM): lagi pun dekat dah tu THAT BOY (12:26:54 AM): alaaa... wawacrv (12:26:59 AM): alaa cammon wawacrv (12:27:05 AM): wawa tak kisah laa wawacrv (12:28:16 AM): eh tapi kalu adik hosmate wawa nak kirim, leh tak? wawacrv (12:28:23 AM): dierg lom makan..kesiann wawacrv (12:28:30 AM): nanti dierg gi amik THAT BOY (12:33:16 AM): jap ek nak tanya owang lain dulu ok wawacrv (12:33:30 AM): k THAT BOY (12:41:53 AM): ok nak order apa|? wawacrv (12:42:16 AM): sat nak tanye dierg wawacrv (12:42:44 AM): nasi daging merah 3 leh? wawacrv (12:42:58 AM): kang wawa turun amik bile korg sampai wawacrv (12:43:04 AM): tapi gate tutup tau THAT BOY (12:43:31 AM): aaa|? THAT BOY (12:43:34 AM): gate tutup|? wawacrv (12:43:35 AM): ha'ah wawacrv (12:43:44 AM): gate korg laa wawacrv (12:43:48 AM): hb2 ngan hb1 tu wawacrv (12:43:52 AM): aparmnt mane ade gate wawacrv (12:44:30 AM): ke korg buat satu U-turn lalu kut parking lot tepi tennis court ni ke (manyak canteqq muka wawa ek ) demand plak THAT BOY (12:44:50 AM): hb1 tak kunci wawacrv (12:44:53 AM): ek? wawacrv (12:45:03 AM): gate ke my apartment tu kunci aa wawacrv (12:45:17 AM): yg kat carpark hb2 tu THAT BOY (12:45:37 AM): ooo paham wawacrv (12:46:22 AM): no tepon bape ek? wawacrv (12:46:25 AM): kang wawa call wawacrv (12:46:47 AM): ade duit takni? THAT BOY (12:46:54 AM): ader ader THAT BOY (12:46:57 AM): no problem wawacrv (12:47:03 AM): k wawacrv (12:47:06 AM): no tepon? THAT BOY (12:47:52 AM): 01******** THAT BOY (12:48:09 AM): bukan no aku.. wawacrv (12:48:12 AM): ok THAT BOY (12:48:19 AM): aku tak bawak phone sekarang wawacrv (12:48:21 AM): sat nak miss call wawacrv (12:48:25 AM): leh tak? THAT BOY (12:48:53 AM): miss call untuk apa|?
* SBB AKU NAK KASIK MY PHONE NUMBER LAA MAAA..SENANG KO NAK CALL AKU NANTI BILE MENDE ALAH TU DAH SAMPAI!
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wawacrv (12:52:56 AM): ha'ah THAT BOY (12:54:58 AM): ..... wawacrv (12:55:06 AM): c u later THAT BOY (12:55:20 AM): cya wawacrv (12:55:23 AM): end
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*NAIK BALIK BILIK...TRY TO CALL 'EM - HP OFF!! THEN MSG KUT YAHOO JUST IN CASE DIERG LUPA YG JANJI KAT APARTMENT BAWAH
wawacrv (2:55:22 AM): awak dah sampai ek? wawacrv (2:55:29 AM): saya carik kat bawah tadi awak tadek pun wawacrv (2:55:54 AM): dah laa call tak dapat yg hp kawan awak tuh
hmm...susah nye nak cari dierg kat bawah ni..cakap dah sampai.. tup² dah turun ground floor, naik atas balik amik hp call...
End up adik hosmate aku makan nasik goreng tadek lauk yg sangat masin!!! (it's not even nasik daging merah)
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I lie awake and try so hard not to think of you. But who can decide what they dream? And dream I do. I believe in you. I'll give up everything just to find you. I have to be with you to live, to breath... You're taking over me. Can you know what I know and all we have. You saw me mourning my love for you and touched my hand. I knew you loved me then. I look in the mirror and see your face, if I look deep enough. So many things inside that just frighten you are taking over.
Well, hari tu almost nak stop dah dari tulis sblog. Something turn me off...hehhehe.. only my love one knows Y..ahaks.. time passed by so fast.. seems kita forgot lots of life and love. Hmm tatau nak describe cammane that feel of lost and loosing grips. Abang outstation lagi..kali ni ke paka..CNY kat sane..while I'm havig my mid term breaks here in MMU. Wont be able to balik kampung since keje banyak. Dah lepaskan windu kat anak sedara seme last weekend... balik, bawak my parents gi pahang.. then dari pahang balik ke KL on the same day.... Selisih jek ngan abang kat Mentakab I guess - dia ke Paka...I'm towards KL.. wat a slip of time...mlm ni plak abg duti malam sampai kol 2 pagi... Larat ke dia ek? pray for ur safety...
WENT OUT WITH MY TEACHER TO WASH HIS CAR... WE WENT FOR DINNER AND SMAYANG KAT MASJID PUTRAJAYA.. so gentleman and nice..kind hearted I should say. It start with bet... now wat? hmm still cant sleep.owh yatie call.. love pacik n yatie so much... tq for ur help. Tatau nak balas camne jasa baik korg
ok..Map dah siap...and Flowchart dah siap..tinggal scene and character...had our dinner in bangi.. Met new good friends - Loqman (ppsttt suami org plz..muakakaka :twisted: ) Seems he's so interested to me duh..hmmm typical Malay guy..ade bini tak sedor diri nak ngorat anak dara orang.... Kononnye adore me so much..ahaks..wat a bulls***. Appreciate ur wife tu...one day if U loose her..U'll be sorry! Watch Bridget jones' Diary..wow I love that movie! U know y? U have to watch it urself then. I love mark so much..adn I adore a man like him! seriously..cool and easy plus gentleman..wink** winkkk :lol: Nites all...Haa abang call cam nak cakap yg dia jealouse..cammon..dun b such a typical malay guy..U wont be going so far if U act like that:P
well, time pass ny..tq abg Rimi sbb lift up my self motivation..Well, back to the track..buat keje bebaik..wish me luckz. TQ Fairul too...u r such a helpful one when I need someone.. Love ya all..
heheh..such a lovely time too..and nasik habis..yeahooo...Hmm byk talk about life and future. How happy we can be if only we can just point finger to make things real..ahakss..cam citer cinderella. Tup²..abang call hp pacik...keskeskes..ape lagi - check point laa.. ade ke dia gi tepon hp pacik, for me it shows how deperate! kinda embarassing jgak..Y he has to do that? aduiiilaa..kalau risau and feelign insecure pun ,U dun have to catch me on the scene!..isk iskk iskkkk :oops:
Pagi pi beli papers and some stuff (ehem ..ehem) kat Tesco, petang class Law.. drive all the way, takmoh jalan kaki pun..sangat poyo ok..kekkekeke.. kakchik call, she said baby dia dalam perut gerak² - cam can see kat dianye tummy...how weird! hmm now dia dah masuk 7 bulan - Getting new baby and new car. Hmm.. so happy for her, tapi nape dia nak nyusahkan ma??? I hate that!!! really² DO!
baru balik jog- tpai Mus sowang jek yg jog. Rajin betul..then we all gi street mall.. Such a lovely time. TQ mus..That's Y u r my best fren ever..U know wat my appetite need..iihihihi 8)
Just came back from presentation - Review 1 - DM FYP. well, as I assume- reject lee ape lagi..takpe, I do deserve dit sbb buat last minit lagik..kekekke. Kene redo and buat own characters..Sempat ke?? nak kene submit by tuesday..adeuihhh.. Nape laa amik FCM ek?
Hmmm.... Nape Abang tak call hari ni?..dia pi mane? Outstation lagi ke?? he didnt even wish me good luck :( , maybe he's too bz kot...or he has a very important meeting.
Tadi masa dalam kelas, Zaini ade pesan pasal blaja bebetuiii... motivasi sket..maybe lately ni I dun perfome well in class.. Tq frens for such a comfort words.
Lepak sembang ngan Jiah..seems byk persamaan between me and her..duhhh, baru prasan. Well, both of us really happy with life (that's wat I can see) No matter what!! one thing reason nye: coz we are surrounded with such a wonderfull and good friens..aren't we? Wat a life.. Full of weird feelings.
hmm nape tak call lagi ni? did I hurt him? bz kot ek?
